The Master Plan

I've submitted my MSc thesis! YAY! It's over! Well, almost at least. There's just one more letter to get from my doctor for administration reasons then I can kiss the university goodbye. It's not like I don't like studying but I had to go through so much crap. One too many idiots around for my liking not to mention the memories of the darkest time I have ever had with my ED.

My birthday is exactly 2 weeks and 2 days away and I'm going to hit my target weight of 11 stone (154 lbs) by then. That means I can have cake and I'll meet my first goal weight before the end of the month. I was so set on being super thin and gorgeous by my 25th birthday and it's disappointing that won't be happening. I'm going to push that negativity out of my head and replace it with something positive; 25 will be the age I achieve my weight loss goals and the age I really make changes towards becoming a happier person. It's happening. I'm getting too old for all this sh*t.

This is going to be how the next 2 weeks are going to go:

Yoga: 15mins
Breakfast: 200kcal
Calisthenics: 30mins
Lunch: 150kcal
3km jog
Dinner: 500-700kcal
Snacks: vegetables only - 50kcal

Kcal balance: 1000 peferably less.

I don't want to go too crazy with restricting because I don't want to be in the super lame metabolism situation where if I have a larger meal or a treat with family I gain 10 lbs or something stupid.
I'll be sticking to the kcal guidelines for the next couple of days as well as the yoga and calisthenics but will start jogging when I get back to the flat. I'm currently chilling at my parents.

Chasing Twigs

Rhino on a Treadmill

I'm not completely done with my thesis yet but it's been too long since I blogged and the temptation was too great.

The last couple of months have been the same old yo-yo of struggling along and dealing with everyday stresses. I quite enjoyed my job but the erratic, unsociable hours made my eating difficult so too did staying at B&Bs and eating at restaurants. 

Speaking of my job I still haven't been paid! I literally have less than £20 to my name and it's really stressing me out. I'm on good terms with my boss and we get along great but she's going to get another firm e-mail from me. I'm literally owed £100s!

My jewellery business is going OK. people like my stuff but the two craft fairs I went to were utter crap. Hardly anyone came through the doors but I did manage some sales and a demonstration booking. I have two this month and one in August so I'm really hoping they're busy ones. If only shops allowed payment in beads I wouldn't be so flat ass broke.

I've lost 2lbs in 3 days and amazingly I hauled myself out for a run a couple of days ago which I hadn't done in a long time. I went with A who didn't mean to be a jerk but he came out with a few comments that made me all too aware of how my fitness has slipped. It wasn't about how fast I was going. At this point it's just about doing those 3 laps around the park and being happy with having done them.

This picture is great for two reasons; 1. It sums up how I feel all too well.  2. One of the origin stories of the unicorn is that the rhinoceros was misidentified as a unicorn. The rhino in the picture is aspiring to be what others already see it as... Awwwww!

 

Love always, B X